Debbie's Blog Babble

To anyone listening, Maybe this helped me a little today. I was watching a tv show and there was a part of this speech. Just a tiny part of the whole thing that might have helped me today in some way.. "But I know that's naive, it's just not how life works, it's moving, always moving whether you like it or not. And yeah, sometimes that's painful, sometimes it's sad, and sometimes, it's surprising, happy, so you know what, keep on growing up kid. Don't let me stop you.  Make mistakes, learn from 'em, and when life hurts you, because it will, remember that hurt. Hurt is good - it means you're out of that cave." 

To anyone listening, I am still dealing with depression. It isn't as bad but it's still there. I have been going through the list of 17 (did you hear that???) SEVENTEEN people that don't talk to us or are mad at us. Whether it's one of us or both of us and I can say MAYBE all but one I blame myself for. I think everyday of the way I ruined his life. Maybe a month ago.. I saw that my old friend's dad passed away. I felt terrible for her. I sent her a card. I didn't need a reply and I wasn't doing it to look like I was wonderful but it actually broke my heart for her. I think about her very randomly. Usually when it's a story about something we did together. I started to go through the positive and negative of that relationship. I realized what she was going through and I probably didn't realize that neither of were talking about it as much as we should have been so I could be there for her. Then there are other moments.. about how little was d...

To anyone listening, Here are lyrics to a song that has really been important to me lately. It's a Christian song. [Verse 1] I keep fighting voices in my mind that say I’m not enough Every single lie that tells me I will never measure up Am I more than just the sum of every high and every low? Remind me once again just who I am, because I need to know [Chorus] You say I am loved when I can’t feel a thing You say I am strong when I think I am weak You say I am held when I am falling short When I don’t belong, oh You say that I am Yours And I believe, oh I believe What You say of me I believe [Verse 2] The only thing that matters now is everything You think of me In You I find my worth, in You I find my identity, o-ooh [Chorus] You say I am loved when I can’t feel a thing You say I am strong when I think I am weak You say I am held when I am falling short When I don’t belong, oh You say that I am Yours And I believe, oh I believe What You say of me Oh, I believe [Verse ...