Learning and regretting and moving
To anyone listening, I've wanted to write on here for a while. I have had a HUGE amount of guilt for stupid, horrible things I did during the cancer and during Faith. Just really dumb decisions and life choices. I can pick myself apart and figure out why and put myself down but it doesn't really change that. All I can say is, people lied about me, I'm very very sorry for the things I've done, and in the last 3 years have REALLY learned a lot. When I was going through some stuff, I was drinking A LOT. I was 2 maids-of-honors at the time and man did I screw up with people around them and even them some times as much as I tried really hard not to and blew $5,000 for each of their weddings to try and make them perfect. I hurt them, their families and friends and did a lot of dumb things in public. A LOT. I can't take it back. I'm trying not to beat myself up for it each day but there is still that little voice back there... I think the big thing I learned is t...