Growth
To whoever is listening, I have gone through some stressful times lately. They often keep me awake and go over and over in my head. The old shoulda woulda coulda deal. I have an amazing psychologist and husband and when I say amazing, I mean AMAZING. She has been monitoring and managing all of this and helping me handle some losses because she is in it with me. He has been in my corner when I need him most. An eye witness to validate me. She asked me if I trust her. I was watching something about people with chronic trauma and sometimes they don't know how to trust or what trust means. When I really think about that, it is very true for me. What I believe is trust, I only have in an extremely small amount of people that I do. Do I trust her? I question if she'll leave or if I'm too much just like I do with anyone I'm close to. The more life goes on, the stronger that fear is. Who promised never to leave has sometimes left. I have people that have been through the worst...