Debbie's Blog Babble

  To whoever is listening: I'm not gonna lie. I'm hurt, I'm angry, I feel selfish.. I don't want to do it without him. It's not fun. It's not what I've already planned and it's only right that I stay instead. If he doesn't, then I won't. She's mine anyway, right?! I just wanted some time with him, memories again and to see friends. I just wanted him.. this one hurts. I'm not going then.

 To whoever is listening:   I'm trying to figure out what are truths and what are lies... for myself, from others, for those I love. It is a painful thing to watch someone who means the world to you get lost in lies and destruction. I am not one to smile all of the time. I am one who has a sensitive heart. I am one who has hope in others but none in herself. I think about it but haven't given up. Please don't give in.. we can do this together Let me in or let yourself out I can't stop pain but with all the love I have, I would want nothing more then to take all of yours away. All of the hate, the anger, the lashing out, the pain I go through, all of it to see you happy. If only I knew what to say I know you won't talk to me but it doesn't hurt to talk to someone Please just know that when I look in your eyes, I see someone I truly love I'm hurting. It does make me want to give up sometimes. Raise my hands to the sky and say, "If this is what you want li...