Lies

 To whoever is listening:

 

I'm trying to figure out what are truths and what are lies... for myself, from others, for those I love.

It is a painful thing to watch someone who means the world to you get lost in lies and destruction.

I am not one to smile all of the time. I am one who has a sensitive heart. I am one who has hope in others but none in herself.

I think about it but haven't given up.

Please don't give in.. we can do this together

Let me in or let yourself out

I can't stop pain but with all the love I have, I would want nothing more then to take all of yours away. All of the hate, the anger, the lashing out, the pain I go through, all of it to see you happy.

If only I knew what to say

I know you won't talk to me but it doesn't hurt to talk to someone

Please just know that when I look in your eyes, I see someone I truly love

I'm hurting. It does make me want to give up sometimes. Raise my hands to the sky and say, "If this is what you want like it seems to be, then I'll go because you're pushing me away! If it means you'll not sink further into the quicksand.. I love you so much.."

You wouldn't want me hurting. I know you wouldn't even if you don't understand it.

I'm not going to let you go so easily.

I can't give up on us. We've been through so much. Smile because we got through it. Take joy in the good. There is good here. If you love me too, then there is good here.

I'm letting the future pass by but we agreed to spend it together.

Dressed in white but I'm scared...

If we don't have each other to make memories together, we let the world win and it has no right to us. I can pick and choose the good and bad years, the moments of joy that shines through but I cannot do this life without you.

We aren't giving up on us and I have no desire to but I want you to find happiness in your life and that glimpse of hope to come through.