Debbie's Blog Babble

To anyone listening, We have to do a lot for this home study but one is to make a letter to the birth mother for our profile.  Besides pictures, this is what she will read about us.  I haven't shown it to the agency yet to see what to add or delete but here is draft #1... Adoption.   One word filled with tons of emotion, questions, fears, hope, and the future. Maybe we have some of the same emotions as you do.   We can all come up with the “what ifs” or the “should I” or even “can I” questions.   I can tell you through all of the questions, the one that we always come back to is, what is best for this baby? We both hope we could calm any of your fears by telling you, your baby will be happy.   Your baby will have a shoulder to cry on, be sung to at night, will laugh as much as we can make it, teach it as much as we can, have special holiday traditions, times of being silly, will be in a loving home where we don’t yell and don’t swear, where prob...

To anyone listening, I'm so torn.  We want to continue the adoption process now and I don't know if my doctors will agree that I am physically and mentally capable.  I think there is a part of me that is terrified that they may not agree I'm ready and that it might not happen and if it were to be because of that.. I would never stop blaming myself. Think positive, right?  I just want to see my life 5 years from now to know what will happen.  What happiness will become of my life.  I have nothing else to do but pray. I am reminding myself that true friends are there for me.  Everyone else can figure out the person they are.  Really think about it.  Is it my loss or gain?  Their loss or their gain?  I'm thinking it is my gain. Either I'm supported in my endeavors or I do it all on my own.   Dustin and I celebrate 12 years of marriage this month and I can't believe I deserve half of what he does to take care of us an...

To anyone listening, Hi Laurie!! I know you are listening! :) This blog is for you.  Thank you for lunch the last couple weeks.  Thank you for reading my blog.  That means more to me than you know.  I know we don't talk much and you are not the best at the phone or texting or responding ;) you have ALWAYS been there for me.  I say that with teary eyes because I know that means that you truly care about me and that isn't easy to find. When we went to lunch the first time, you kept saying "You said.." or "I heard.." and on my way home I thought... ummm how would she know that.  She must read my blog and yesterday you confirmed it. I was kind of in shock that you took the time to.  Not in a bad way but like whoa, she is so busy and we barely talk but she still does really care.. someone actually cares enough to do that?!  I feel that about anyone who reads it without a selfish reason but because they wonder "How is Debbie doing?"  I don't kn...

To anyone listening: It is amazing how words can effect us... everyday.. all the time whether good or bad. "............" "Don't think about that anymore.  What does one have to have for you to trust them? No double standards.  Where do you feel safe?" " Our minds cannot dwell on the lies of the enemy and the truth of God’s Word at the same time.   If your mind is whispering lies of defeat, failure, condemnation, and fear, then it needs to be washed in the Word.  Devoted, expectant time in the Bible and in worship aligns our thinking with that of Christ." "I love you so much" "Sometimes you see the truth and sometimes that truth hurts but that is their problem, not yours." "What is the difference between obligation and selflessness?" "you always look beautiful" "Those who think there is a time limit when grieving..have never lost a piece of their heart" "You are seeing a frie...