rehearsal

To anyone listening,

I can't say I have enjoyed the rehearsal time on this play and last time my partner, who has been having issues all week  and telling me he had all of these questions for the director,  decided he should direct me when the director was there which was not cool at all. Suddenly he was perfect and no questions for the director so I had to ask some for him or else it would be awkward.  I just wish it wasn't me that had to ask all of the questions.

I would say I have my lines memorized but now they are getting stale.  I'm trying to switch it up each time but it's hard.  The other day at rehearsal my medication was making me so warm I had to leave mid rehearsal to just wipe my face off.  I was honestly having so many health issues, it's amazing I got through the rehearsal.

Let's just hope I get through the performances.  I don't think we are at all ready to go one stage with everyone on Tuesday but we don't have a choice.

Anyway, so the next day I go in to see my therapist who feels it's time to teach me the "tapping" method.  You can look that up if you want more info.  I will say for me, it didn't help.  I came in upset at like an 8 and left at a 7 but just because I felt super silly.

All the paperwork is in for disability now so we will see what happens.  It is such a process though.  I had heard it would be so it isn't surprising.

Tomorrow Dustin and I get to go to the Chicago Symphony Orchestra for his birthday gift we bought a while ago.  Nothing fit but luckily my friend Lisa lent me a dress of hers which was really nice.  I always get nervous like I won't fit in the seats.  I always get the end seats and I hope I sit next to someone the size of a carrot so my fat doesn't extend to far into their seat. Luckily Dustin is used to my "full" figure.

Off to look at my lines... AGAIN and get ready for tomorrow.  All the fun girl stuff.

Have a nice day everyone!

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