Debbie's Blog Babble

To anyone listening, I am not sure what it is about the theatre people I have met but they have been very critical with very few positive words being said.  I know getting into theatre or any kind of performances can be a rough business but I was in a community theatre play in Antioch.  I'm not saying it wasn't fun or important for me but that being said, I'm not sure why there has to be so much criticism.  I mean, it's not like I'm up for an Oscar.  It would just be nice to hear "good job" from one of the actors once in a while. I could see if I ask for advice.  Then, tell me the truth or help me but if I'm not asking, can you just stop attacking me?  I just don't get it.  It isn't only people in the play either.  I hear it from any theatre friend I find.  It's just bizarre to me.  Like, can't you just say "nice job" without the but after.  I mean I guess you just have to take the constructive criticism sometimes.  That...

To anyone listening, I hope everyone had a nice Thanksgiving.  I ended up staying home in case Dustin didn't get called out.  I was happy I did because I was able to cook and Dustin and I had dinner together before he was called out. I posted on Facebook about being thankful today and looking at my Facebook wall just made me sad so I decided to write things I was thankful for instead. I saw a lot of children and a lot of big family dinners.  It all kind of made me sad.  I am truly happy for those that have that but it would be nice to have loving parents and have my whole family talking to each other so we can all meet for Thanksgiving.  I love the idea of big Thanksgiving dinners or Christmas dinners with family or friends.  I would love to throw a Friendsgiving but we couldn't afford it this year or else I would have.  I think my friends are my family too and it hurts when I can't be with them too. Sometimes I think what if it is just me and ...

To anyone listening, After the miscarriage, I kind of took a spiral of depression and anger and loss.. certain songs will never be the same.  I was looking at my Etsy favorites and they all had to do with a baby and some with Faith in the title before I even knew I was going to have a girl. So, with that spiral, I hit the highest weight I have ever been.  I have lost 31 pounds since then and only have 57 pounds to go lol.  Baby steps.  Today is my cheat day though so we are having $5 pizza tonight.  At least Thursdays are my cheat day because then I don't have to worry about Thanksgiving.  I can't wait to get to the point where I can go on the treadmill again.  I will most likely need Dustin home at first for a little while because I fell last time.  I am still afraid to go back on it too.  I haven't been cleared to go on it yet either.  I am in two weight loss competitions.  The first one, I am in first.  The second one, I...

To anyone listening, I doubt anyone is anymore but hey, I will still write some of my thoughts.  I am now waiting for my second chance at disability but this time with a lawyer.  I'm hoping it works out.  Dustin and I are struggling so badly and with all of my health issues, it makes it very scary to have a job.  I can't even have an at home job because I can't sit at a computer for more than 20 mins at a time without pain.  I have my first disability doctor's appointment on Saturday and then another on Dec 16th but pray for nice weather for me to get there.  I can't drive very far on my own and Dustin is on call for work that week so I'm hoping the weather is at least nice enough that I can drive myself. The play.. well the play was great and difficult and good and bad all at once.  Overall if I think about it, I miss it.  I have made some great friends through it which is always a plus.  I often wonder that if we all worked together mor...