Adversity
To anyone listening,
"All the adversity I've had in my life, all my troubles and obstacles, have strengthened me...You may not realize it when it happens, but a kick in the teeth may be the best thing in the world for you."
As I mentioned before, I am sent an inspirational quote of the day. This was today's quote. I decided that most quotes I can relate to someway in my life and maybe others can too.
I noticed how many views my therapy blog had. I just want to say that I hope I didn't offend anyone. I was having a bad day and there was a specific situation that was causing me to be upset. Dustin takes it as rude when anyone recommends therapy which I can understand why he thinks that. I think it is ok to say it in certain circumstances but I also don't think it needs to be said if I just say I don't like peas and someone says I need therapy.
All that to say, I didn't mean to start anything with anyone. In some ways, I feel like I should be able to share my feelings but then other times I'm glad it's a blog to vent at times.
Growing up I didn't have the greatest childhood. I had an alcoholic mom, abusive dad, I was sexually abused by some kids and my dad's "friends" and about a million other things but I'm here, happily married, living in my own home and have very very patient friends who love all my craziness. This quote reminded me of how many times both then and even now, I have thought about why I went through some stuff. When I worked with youth group kids who had a hard life, I was able to relate to them. Most of them thought I grew up in a happy home. I think sometimes I need to remember there might be an answer to my "why?" some day down the road. Maybe I will meet someone who also had 9 miscarriages or even 1 that needs someone to understand. I know people that have come to me that have struggled with it have helped me. I might not see it this moment but maybe all of the crap I've been through, all the fights with people, all the people that called me names, all the ones that judge me might one day help me become stronger and give me that kick in the teeth. You can't always blame your past for everything and God knows I have come a long way from how I used to do that. Now, I still do but not to the degree I did. When my father died, it caused me to lose hope in the "one day he will apologize and tell me he loves me" feeling. Then I realized later that he showed us by working to provide a roof over our heads. Would I have rathered had a father than a house? Yes. Would I have rather had a home than a building to live in? Yes. Did it happen and it's over? Yes!
Those moments I think about the losing hope in things like I did when my dad died and when I lost Faith, the more I have to remind myself that I can grow from this. I can learn from these things. I can find my strength and build myself up from these situations. There is a point that I have to take control of everything. I shouldn't let my past dictate what I can or can't do. Is it hard to look in the mirror without hearing so many people that called me fat, ugly, dumb, worthless...etc.? Yes, it is. I usually assume everyone is ripping on me behind my back instead of to my face. I just have to wake up and think God doesn't make junk. I am beautifully and wonderfully made. When I was in Master's, I used to tape verses like that all over the room and on the mirror. I should really do that again.
This blog helps me learn a little. I might mess up today or tomorrow but I have to learn to face things head on and take responsibility for today. I can't fix the past and I can't predict the future but I can try today. I heard in a movie someone ask "why are you here?" and then answer was "because I'm alive"
"All the adversity I've had in my life, all my troubles and obstacles, have strengthened me...You may not realize it when it happens, but a kick in the teeth may be the best thing in the world for you."
As I mentioned before, I am sent an inspirational quote of the day. This was today's quote. I decided that most quotes I can relate to someway in my life and maybe others can too.
I noticed how many views my therapy blog had. I just want to say that I hope I didn't offend anyone. I was having a bad day and there was a specific situation that was causing me to be upset. Dustin takes it as rude when anyone recommends therapy which I can understand why he thinks that. I think it is ok to say it in certain circumstances but I also don't think it needs to be said if I just say I don't like peas and someone says I need therapy.
All that to say, I didn't mean to start anything with anyone. In some ways, I feel like I should be able to share my feelings but then other times I'm glad it's a blog to vent at times.
Growing up I didn't have the greatest childhood. I had an alcoholic mom, abusive dad, I was sexually abused by some kids and my dad's "friends" and about a million other things but I'm here, happily married, living in my own home and have very very patient friends who love all my craziness. This quote reminded me of how many times both then and even now, I have thought about why I went through some stuff. When I worked with youth group kids who had a hard life, I was able to relate to them. Most of them thought I grew up in a happy home. I think sometimes I need to remember there might be an answer to my "why?" some day down the road. Maybe I will meet someone who also had 9 miscarriages or even 1 that needs someone to understand. I know people that have come to me that have struggled with it have helped me. I might not see it this moment but maybe all of the crap I've been through, all the fights with people, all the people that called me names, all the ones that judge me might one day help me become stronger and give me that kick in the teeth. You can't always blame your past for everything and God knows I have come a long way from how I used to do that. Now, I still do but not to the degree I did. When my father died, it caused me to lose hope in the "one day he will apologize and tell me he loves me" feeling. Then I realized later that he showed us by working to provide a roof over our heads. Would I have rathered had a father than a house? Yes. Would I have rather had a home than a building to live in? Yes. Did it happen and it's over? Yes!
Those moments I think about the losing hope in things like I did when my dad died and when I lost Faith, the more I have to remind myself that I can grow from this. I can learn from these things. I can find my strength and build myself up from these situations. There is a point that I have to take control of everything. I shouldn't let my past dictate what I can or can't do. Is it hard to look in the mirror without hearing so many people that called me fat, ugly, dumb, worthless...etc.? Yes, it is. I usually assume everyone is ripping on me behind my back instead of to my face. I just have to wake up and think God doesn't make junk. I am beautifully and wonderfully made. When I was in Master's, I used to tape verses like that all over the room and on the mirror. I should really do that again.
This blog helps me learn a little. I might mess up today or tomorrow but I have to learn to face things head on and take responsibility for today. I can't fix the past and I can't predict the future but I can try today. I heard in a movie someone ask "why are you here?" and then answer was "because I'm alive"
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