yesterday
To anyone listening,
Yesterday was hard. It was hard. It didn't help that I received a congratulations email from Parents.com or that I happened to receive a box of free formula.
My friends were so amazing. I posted on FB not for pity but for help. I needed my friends and I am truly thankful they were there for me. I am someone who reaches out for a hug, for a laugh, for a loving thought. Dustin tends to deal with stuff on his own so he doesn't understand why I need that but it is hard to explain other than I just need it.
The lanterns are still lit today. I am having a hard time turning them off...
That's all I can say about that..
Today I will clean the upstairs bathroom, fold clothes, go over lines, and then I will get ready for karaoke tonight. I really hope Dustin and I can soon visit our friend Jason at his new job but I'm pretty sure he is at his other one during the weekend. A sweet girl from the show and I were talking on FB and she wants to get together after the rehearsal on the 19th. I tried to get her to come to karaoke but she is too shy she said. She is sweet. I'm not going to sing, I told her but still a no go. I tried. It's always nice to have someone you like there.
You know how some people, most people, need some time alone. Now, I feel like I have TOO much time alone.
Joel came over yesterday to go over lines. I had almost all of mine down but he didn't and he felt so bad. To be fair, my lines are wayyyyy easier to learn than his. His are rough! So, he wants to meet again before our next rehearsal. Dustin and I are going to Stan and Mary's for the Bears game which I am really excited about. We haven't seen them in over a year I think or maybe about a year. Originally Joel wanted to get together again on Sunday and I was like no way! Lol Once I reminded him about the Bears, he was like no no no. haha. So, we are meeting Monday again. He is doing better with his lines than he thinks so.
He is like a hard core workout guy and partly owns a gym or something. I'm like oh my gosh, I seriously look like I can eat him. It isn't good. I feel so fat. I am fat but feeling like it is different? Does that make sense?
Anyway, thank you from the bottom of my heart for those that were there for me yesterday. I know it might seem like this is dragging for some people but I reach out because I really need it. We aren't dressing up or giving out candy on Halloween. I usually love it but I don't think I can handle kids coming up and giving me a hug right now.
I'm not even sure about Christmas cards. We have no idea what we would do anyway. I know my brain isn't putting the energy in that it did so I am missing some of my favorite things but hopefully it is just for this year...
Yesterday was hard. It was hard. It didn't help that I received a congratulations email from Parents.com or that I happened to receive a box of free formula.
My friends were so amazing. I posted on FB not for pity but for help. I needed my friends and I am truly thankful they were there for me. I am someone who reaches out for a hug, for a laugh, for a loving thought. Dustin tends to deal with stuff on his own so he doesn't understand why I need that but it is hard to explain other than I just need it.
The lanterns are still lit today. I am having a hard time turning them off...
That's all I can say about that..
Today I will clean the upstairs bathroom, fold clothes, go over lines, and then I will get ready for karaoke tonight. I really hope Dustin and I can soon visit our friend Jason at his new job but I'm pretty sure he is at his other one during the weekend. A sweet girl from the show and I were talking on FB and she wants to get together after the rehearsal on the 19th. I tried to get her to come to karaoke but she is too shy she said. She is sweet. I'm not going to sing, I told her but still a no go. I tried. It's always nice to have someone you like there.
You know how some people, most people, need some time alone. Now, I feel like I have TOO much time alone.
Joel came over yesterday to go over lines. I had almost all of mine down but he didn't and he felt so bad. To be fair, my lines are wayyyyy easier to learn than his. His are rough! So, he wants to meet again before our next rehearsal. Dustin and I are going to Stan and Mary's for the Bears game which I am really excited about. We haven't seen them in over a year I think or maybe about a year. Originally Joel wanted to get together again on Sunday and I was like no way! Lol Once I reminded him about the Bears, he was like no no no. haha. So, we are meeting Monday again. He is doing better with his lines than he thinks so.
He is like a hard core workout guy and partly owns a gym or something. I'm like oh my gosh, I seriously look like I can eat him. It isn't good. I feel so fat. I am fat but feeling like it is different? Does that make sense?
Anyway, thank you from the bottom of my heart for those that were there for me yesterday. I know it might seem like this is dragging for some people but I reach out because I really need it. We aren't dressing up or giving out candy on Halloween. I usually love it but I don't think I can handle kids coming up and giving me a hug right now.
I'm not even sure about Christmas cards. We have no idea what we would do anyway. I know my brain isn't putting the energy in that it did so I am missing some of my favorite things but hopefully it is just for this year...
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