been so long
To anyone listening,
I doubt anyone is anymore but hey, I will still write some of my thoughts. I am now waiting for my second chance at disability but this time with a lawyer. I'm hoping it works out. Dustin and I are struggling so badly and with all of my health issues, it makes it very scary to have a job. I can't even have an at home job because I can't sit at a computer for more than 20 mins at a time without pain. I have my first disability doctor's appointment on Saturday and then another on Dec 16th but pray for nice weather for me to get there. I can't drive very far on my own and Dustin is on call for work that week so I'm hoping the weather is at least nice enough that I can drive myself.
The play.. well the play was great and difficult and good and bad all at once. Overall if I think about it, I miss it. I have made some great friends through it which is always a plus. I often wonder that if we all worked together more often, would it have been even better.. We mostly worked with our scene partner and him and I had some issues with our scene so we were probably both frustrated at each other at some point. I really loved my director and I will really miss him. I'm glad I got to know him and that he was my first director coming back into acting.
There are a few people who thought they were the next Leo DiCaprio and they felt they could kind of tell me what to do which was a little frustrating but luckily the majority of the people were kind. I made two friends that both like A Very Brady Christmas. Now that's rare and I love them for it haha.
I am feeling really lost. I feel depressed and lonely and not just because I'm home but because I want so much. I miss people. My family and friends and just being socially out. I miss my husband while he works but it's because I have deeper issues. I have been thinking about the loss of children. I just want to get to the point where I can have the possibility to adopt.
Anyway, my friend Lisa is calling and I love when she does so I'm going to take the call. I'm sure I will be back again tomorrow. Thanks for listening.
I doubt anyone is anymore but hey, I will still write some of my thoughts. I am now waiting for my second chance at disability but this time with a lawyer. I'm hoping it works out. Dustin and I are struggling so badly and with all of my health issues, it makes it very scary to have a job. I can't even have an at home job because I can't sit at a computer for more than 20 mins at a time without pain. I have my first disability doctor's appointment on Saturday and then another on Dec 16th but pray for nice weather for me to get there. I can't drive very far on my own and Dustin is on call for work that week so I'm hoping the weather is at least nice enough that I can drive myself.
The play.. well the play was great and difficult and good and bad all at once. Overall if I think about it, I miss it. I have made some great friends through it which is always a plus. I often wonder that if we all worked together more often, would it have been even better.. We mostly worked with our scene partner and him and I had some issues with our scene so we were probably both frustrated at each other at some point. I really loved my director and I will really miss him. I'm glad I got to know him and that he was my first director coming back into acting.
There are a few people who thought they were the next Leo DiCaprio and they felt they could kind of tell me what to do which was a little frustrating but luckily the majority of the people were kind. I made two friends that both like A Very Brady Christmas. Now that's rare and I love them for it haha.
I am feeling really lost. I feel depressed and lonely and not just because I'm home but because I want so much. I miss people. My family and friends and just being socially out. I miss my husband while he works but it's because I have deeper issues. I have been thinking about the loss of children. I just want to get to the point where I can have the possibility to adopt.
Anyway, my friend Lisa is calling and I love when she does so I'm going to take the call. I'm sure I will be back again tomorrow. Thanks for listening.
I'm listening! I bet many of us are, and we are so proud of you sweetie.
ReplyDeleteThank you. I wish I could be something to be proud of right now.
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