weekend

 To anyone that's listening,

I can honestly say, other then one very small snag, I had a great weekend. I actually felt like I might have made someone else a little happy too (?) Thank you.. It was really nice to be able to say that. I haven't had it in a long time. I hope you did too. I miss it already. I have to go back to the cleaning the downstairs and I have to look up some up some stuff. Sometimes I like that and other times not so much. Depending on how much my body can do today, I hope to do some of the rowing machine. We keep spending money and we don't have anyone to buy for but ourselves but I guess sometimes, although you might end up regretting it lol, you have to live life a little for yourselves too. We are going to the Van Gogh exhibit on next week in the city. Hopefully the city won't ruin the weekend and moods will stay positive again so we can enjoy something beautiful. My husband mentioned it before and I forgot that he did.. I feel so bad. I guess we both make mistakes or I'm making an excuse. Probably the latter.. :(

I am attempting to do more acting. Nothing seems to be working out. My husband is pretty much my manager, handles all of the media, camera, green screen, lighting, editing. I'm just like, ok 5 minutes later of an audition and I'm done. I feel awful. I have to try to practice some stuff when he's not around so I can do SOMETHING. He has NO idea how much all he does means to me. No idea. I don't know if I ever would have tried acting ever again. I was chosen to do a job for a man based in Los Angeles. He is basically working on an evening of monologues, in a sense, and he asked me to do the hardest one of the scripts I was sent. I can't remember if he picked different ones for everyone or sent all three to everyone. I think it was all three as audition pieces to everyone. Anyway, I asked which one he wanted me to work on with him and of course he picks the hardest one. We have some fantastic sessions. I've already learned a lot. And then internet issues... I was having an issue with Zoom, then he said he sent an email that I never received so he asked if I was still interested because I was basically taking a position from someone else, then I had another issue with Zoom, then I was supposed to do an ad for social media and had to memorize that script so he said to take my time memorizing his, I did and wrote him to set up a time to meet, he sent me a link to click on to make an appointment, that didn't work, he told me to try again and it worked on his end. My husband tried to get it to work because no link was coming up on our end. He tried everything. So, I wrote the man back and explained. He hasn't responded, but it was sent late yesterday afternoon. Either way, I look SOOOOO stupid!!!  All of this makes me look terrible. I wonder if I should just let him give the spot to someone else because now I'm taking away from someone else's spot. I feel awful. They weren't on purpose but still. 

UGHHHH I don't want to do anything today. My body is like NO but I'm sure laziness is included in that no. Ok ok, I'll have an early lunch, do some dusting, clean the counters, do the half bathroom, sweep and vacuum again, and then hopefully do at least 15 minutes on the rowing machine. Depending on the day, I might be alone until at least as little as 3 so hopefully I can finish all of the that. I always prefer my evenings open with my husband. It isn't long and then we are asleep. Boo..

I haven't been a good sleeping companion lately. I could go into it, but it's bad. I would definitely be mad if it was reversed. What's wrong with me!!!!!!!! Then yesterday I was getting sleepy at 7:30. 7:30!!!! 

Anyway, off I go. Just wanted to share that I hope I made someone happy because I am able to say that I had a great long weekend. Positive moments do exist. :)

p.s. this 2nd degree burn/bad frosbite "scar" or whatever is happening while it's still healing (crossing fingers that it won't just look like this forever) is so ugly, that I'm losing my mind. I can't even put on long sleeves without some pain. :( I hope it gets better and fast!!!!!

Ohhh I almost forgot! I sent my foster Mom a "Happy Thanksgiving video." She actually sent one back with her daughter and granddaughter!!! Her husband was in the second half of the video. She sounded just like I imagined. I watched it several times. I was soooo happy. I even sent it to a few close friends. I couldn't help share my joy. AHHHH I have to watch it now :) :) :)