Because

 To whoever is listening:

 

So, here we are. Another day and a new pain. My neck this time. Sometimes I think about how different my life was before 2015. It was so much better. I was able to help both physically and financially. I was able to do things without pain. Oh to wake up in the middle of the night hoping it isn't pain that woke you.

 

Sometimes I see glimpses of hope in all aspects of myself. I've learned to appreciate some people more and I'm learning to shut my mouth more and more hence this blog where I just talk. Ironic isn't it?

 

I have an amazing husband. No one would ever take care of me the way he does. He loves me and works very very hard. 

 

I look around the house and realize just how much crap I own and drawers to go through, closets to throw things out of, and then I look at a life that's lived. I'm not saying without stuff you haven't lived. I'm saying that for me, each thing was a time in my life, a memory, dreams, loves, and sometimes you have to walk away and create new memories and a better life.

 

May the best days of your past be the worst of your future. I look at pictures of me and my husband and smile. The times we've laughed are unimaginable. The lifetime we've lived so fortunately. The times we've spent together and the things we've gotten through together is endless. I don't want to change being with him. He makes me smile and sometimes all I want is to do the same for him.

 

Wrote a message in a wedding card today (never expecting to be invited to anymore in my life so it is truly an honor) and writing to remember to compromise, to be open and honest, to communicate, to love through all things, and to laugh. Laugh a lot.  She has the most beautiful smile and when I see pictures of her with him, her smile is even brighter. 

 

In a picture of me and my husband, someone asked who that girl was with him. I said, "me haha." To that they replied that they didn't recognize me because I smiled so much bigger then anything they've seen. 

 

My husband.. my life..my future..our dreams

 

Where we'll go.. oh the things we'll see

 

Money sucks but like they say, it can't buy happiness but it did buy a trip to Disney World once sooo...